Never Far Behind

I know this really isn't you
I Know Your Heart Is Somewhere Else
And I'll Do Anything I Can
To Help You Break Out Of This Spell
I See You Following your Crowd
I Know You're Trying To Fit In
But If Your Gonna Find Yourself
You Gotta Start From Deep, Deep Within

Hold On To What You Believe

I Will Always Be Your Friend
I Know Who You Are Inside
I Am With You Till The End
Never Far Behind
I am standing in the distance
You can take your time
And I will be there waiting
Never Far Behind
Yeah
Never Far Behind

I Am Sending You A Message
Don't ever Think That It's Too Late
When You Care About Someone
There is always room for change
you're allowed to make mistakes
it's a part of every life
I Don't See you any different
The Truth Is Shining In Your Eyes

Hold On To What You Believe

I Will Always Be Your Friend
I Know Who You Are Inside
I Am With You Till The End
Never Far Behind
I am standing in the distance
You can take your time
And I will be there waiting
Never Far Behind
Yeah
Never Far Behind

You Can Take Your Time
And I Know
From My Heart

I Will Always Be Your Friend
I Know Who You Are Inside
I Am With You Till The End
Never Far Behind
I am standing in the distance
You can take your time
and I will be here waiting
Waiting by my side
God
Is Never Far Behind

I Am Sending you a message

I thought I had survived the horror…. But I was wrong…

For 10 years, I’ve endured the torment. 10 years, the horrors never stopped. Each and everyday, I am plagued by these demons. And everyday, it only makes me stronger against them. It’s hard, it’s lonely, but I have no other options. They came in many forms. So, came outright, appearing in their true forms, with no form of deception whatsoever. They had it simple; just do what they needed to do, even out in the open, for all to see. Then there were the worse ones. These were the masters of trickery. Using schemes and devious plots, they twisted reality, using any means necessary to fool me. Fortunately, I was attentive to all but one. So in all, only 1 managed to twist me around their fingers, and con me until I eventually escape.

The experience made me who I am. A recluse. A cold-blooded person. With a heart as icy as my freezing execution. I shut out my emotions completely, for they made me most vulnerable to the others. I separated myself from them all; all I could do was accepting it all. Then I had a chance, I moved on, into a different world, one where I thought I could start a new life. I thought I had survived the horror and the nightmares….

But I was wrong…

It came suddenly, for I hadn’t expected it all over again. But they did come, the demons, different in appearance, but monsters nonetheless. It was just as it was years ago; they came in the same forms. Some were direct, and straight to the kill, with no mercy and no remorse. There were still those who practice the art of deceit, trying to fool me by their pleasant appearance. But I was ready, I put up my defenses again, defenses that should have been gathering dust. Then came a new kind, a unique one, one that was unlike any other. It had the power to break my defenses, open them wide, so the rest may join the ambush. Yes, ambush, I was totally caught off guard. Acts of kindness, a fake aura of innocence, words that seems rehearsed, and a performance worthy of the highest award in acting. Before I knew it, I was laying myself open to attack. And it came, all together. This unique one, it was possible it was the mastermind of it all, the planner of everything, although I cant really be sure. All I can be sure is, there is an alliance amongst the group, making up almost half of them all. At first you may not notice, but I believe we have reached the climax of their plans. It seems they have played us all along. All this time, it was a big setup, so big, yet so small I never saw it coming.

Yet I hope… hope in one who may lessen this new force out to get me. This person is like me, a recluse, so at least I’m sure this isn’t another pawn in that conspiracy against me. But although they say bird of the same feather fly together, what can you expect from two anti-social, psychotic loners with hearts of ice? Sure, two big-headed, arrogant people may work out, and two whiny ‘babies’ can complain together, but this? All we know is, I believe its time Kaiser comes back, for the safety of both of us. I know this is hard on you, but trust me, it’s for the best. As for this one person, I will think about it. Although it’s unlikely that we can consider ‘ally’, it’s certain it’s not ‘enemy’. Not good, not bad, but maybe like something in between. In the world of this eternal torment and suffering, I can’t be too sure of a friend, hope, maybe, and believe, but never count on it. But still, I will try. Better than living through this alone again.

This girl...

For the first time I looked at her. I mean REALLY looked at her. She was by far the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. But it wasn't only her physical appearance. Her body just seemed to radiate goodness, kindness, and innocence. In all the books I have read and all the plays I have seen, all the conversations I over heard, and everyone I had ever encountered myself, I had never heard of someone who was or who could be so pure of heart. Either she was as pure as I took her to be, or she was the best actress I had ever seen.

It was more than any man could bear, let alone a man who had avoided contact with humans until then. I felt like my emotions were taking over my mind and my body. It was new to me considering I had never been partial to whims and fancies before.

For the first time, I realized how strong my emotions really were for her. I never thought that I could be won over so easily. I thought it would be near impossible to fall in love. But she had managed to get me to fall in love and not even realize it. She had gotten to me through my backdoor after all. Just certainly not in the way I had originally thought. Oh, she ambushed me alright. But it was not to kill. But she had made it quite impossible to keep living the way I was living. I needed her. Not once a day. All day.

Stars are Blind by Paris Hilton :)

"Stars Are Blind"

I don't mind spending some time
Just hanging here with you'
Cause I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do.
Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride
But when I walk they talk of suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside
And I'm satisfied, oh no, ohh

Even though the guys are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Maybe I'm perfect for you
Ohh, ohh, ohh

I could be your confidante
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that's not what you want
If tomorrow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love?
Now tell me who have you been dreaming of?
I and I alone, oh, no

Even though the guys are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you

Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
Might be we feel it
It could get physical, oh no, no, no

Even though the guys are crazy (Oh)
Even though the stars are blind (Oh)
Even though the guys are crazy (Oh)
Even though the stars are blind (Oh)

Private Emotion

Every endless night has a dawning day

Every darkest sky has a shining ray

And it shines on you baby can't you see

You're the only one who can shine for me

When your soul is tired and your heart is weak

Do you think of love as one way street

Well it runs both ways, open up your eyes

Can't you see me here, how can you deny

It's a private emotion that fills you tonight

And a silence falls between us

As the shadows steal the light

And wherever you may find it

Wherever it may lead

Let your private emotion come to me

Love Means

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)
Girl: Slowdown. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy:Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIGhug. (Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke,but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felther hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though itmeant he would die.

Poetic Boredom

kinda nonsense... i know

Bored

I am bored,
Bored half to death
I release another
Frustrated breath

I am getting impatient
I have nothing to do
If you are reading this
You're probably bored too

Pace, pace
Stop, turn
Patience I have
Yet to learn

Pace, pace
Stop, think
What should I do,
Doing nothing stinks

What can I do
Please help me
I might as well
Go write some poetry


Bored... Oh So Bored

I'm sitting here, on my bed.
The light is very dim.
Music plays around my head,
As I write this little poem.

Reading this, will waste your life.
No stories of love, or conquering evil,
There are no stories of pain, no stories of strife.
Just a story of boredom, and nothing special.

Maybe time will hurry by, as I write.
Sweeping me off to the next thing...
Or maybe cows will fly.
That makes more sense to me.

Will you laugh? Will you cry?
Will anger flare up in you?
Will this poem cause someone to die?
It might... You may die of boredom.

Being bored is very boring.
Nothing really happens.
I guess that's what it's for:
To call nothing something.

Now that I've finished typing this word,
I guess I'll go eat.
Because I eat when I'm bored,
And I don't gain weight!